Damn, how I should I start this, it's like a eulogy for a dearly departed, and clearly I'm heartless, heartfelt, heart broken, nah I'm just a broken man, stresses I got em, juggling 2 and 3 jobs, juggling 2 and 3 women, struggling to stay involved with my 3 beautiful children, I did what you did, but I did it more, I did it raw, you cheated first, then I cheated, so three kids are now 4, let's get involved, but that came a little after, that's just a different chapter, for now, back to the matter, at hand, remember violence begets violence, aggression is not my style, but I couldn't remain silent, married you after 9yrs of being together, foolish move just for the kids, thought we cud beat any weather, we just beat on each other, emotionally, verbally, revenge is best served cold, I continued to hurt you see, that's what happens when love changes, I turned my back on you, that's what happens when friends become strangers, this is what happens when, people grow apart, and try to make it work, things fall apart, we didn't agree to disagree cause everything's a disagreement, even the small things that don't mean ish, but this is what life brings, no secrets, nobody told me that its gon' be easy.
Chorus
This is my life unscripted, the fight was like an addiction, like drugs in my veins, you're so vain, you probably think this letter's about you, but its not about you, it's about me
No papers signed, just some dollar signs, custody battles, child support, thought the drama died, they say men don't cry, but tears are cathartic, these ain't tears of a clown, but that's how I'm feeling now, my fourth child is being born, its like the same ish is going on, family is squawking, loud mouths are talking, speak about me like I'm dead, they wanna see me in my coffin, this happens often, I guess, the year of break ups, perhaps I'm gone I guess, but wait I digress, I'm repeating my last marriage, and I ain't even married, too much baggage to carry, somehow I gotta find a way out, some sucker shit if I just bounce, but if I stay its gone be just as bad, but if I go then I'm just like my dad, damn.
Chorus
This is my life unscripted, the fight was like an addiction, like drugs in my veins, you're so vain, you probably think this letter's about you, but its not about you, it's about me
You tried to say I wasn't living right, but I just bowed out without a fight, I guess love wasn't enough, or it wasn't strong, but I'm gone, no reason to carry on, marriage lost, yes I had my dignity, yes you had the house and all, my lawyer just wanted you gone, much better for all involved, pulled a disappearing act, wesley snipes, became a recluse, hating life, I didn't expect you, to understand my plight, sleeping in my jeep at night, fighting demons in my mind, fighting thoughts of homicide, fighting to keep my sanity, hoping my God ain't mad at me, second failure at sanctity, the third is a charm, that'll never happen see, thought you was virtuous, thought I was ready for us, tried to shower you in gold, but my goals weren't good enough, I guess we were a bad decision, just waiting to happen, I guess there's no hiding from karma, amen to that friend.
Chorus
This is my life unscripted, the fight was like an addiction, like drugs in my veins, you're so vain, you probably think this letter's about you, but its not about you, it's about me
credits
from DEADication,
released February 11, 2014
produced by Rawthreat for Final Word
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